Uncertainties…

For the past few days I have been feeling unwell… I have not an idea what causes it… It’s always a mixture of emotions and vivid thoughts…

It makes me feel uncertain about life, about my environment, my actions and reactions, almost my everything… It drains my energy…

Is this a sign? A sign for what?

It’s during this times that I entertain the idea of cutting myself… Not in a suicidal kind of way but just to bring me back to reality that I am still here… May the higher entities forbid me not doing it…

It makes me wanna go back to my former self… The one that I was way back before I met my friends…

I feel so uncertain…